Monday, February 8, 2016

When tomorrow comes
I'll be on my own
Feeling frightened of the things that I don't know
When tomorrow comes
Tomorrow comes
Tomorrow comes

And though the road is long
I look up to the sky
And in the dark I found, I stop but I know that I won't fly
Then I sing along
Sing along
Sing along

I got all I need when I got you and I
Cause I look around me and see a sweet life
Stuck in the dark but your my flashlight
Getting me through the night
Can't stop my heart when you're shining in my eyes
I can't lie, its a sweet life
I'm stuck in the dark but your my flashlight.
Getting me through the night

I see the shadows
Long beneath the mountain top
I'm not afraid when the rain won't stop
Cause you light the way
Light the way
Light the way

I love this song.  It has a lot of meaning for me.  As a milspo there are lots of times that I have had to say "when tomorrow comes I'll be on my own".  

And often the road feels long.  And at times it feels like the rain won't stop.

But I'm never alone.

When I hear this song I think of the two most important things in my life.  God and my husband.
(don't judge me. kids fit in this somewhere too but right now i'm not talking about them).
I look around me and I see the sweet life that God has given me and that R and I live together.  R is my rock and he guides me so often.  I trust him with absolutely everything about our lives.  Even to the point that I know and accept that the Army has to be part of our lives. I trust his decision on this and know that our family got not just survive but thrive.  And I certainly can't stop my heart when it comes to him.  Even after all these years I hear his voice on the phone and my heart beats faster. I see his face on FaceTime and I can't stop smiling.  And I'm so thankful for technology that lets me have access to him and his wisdom when I need his help (which is so very often) with a problem or decision.

But God never leaves me.  He does light my way and He brings me through all the dark times.  He shows up in little tiny details that show me He care for me and He shows up in big ways that I can't deny are His workings.  He shows up using others to show me love and help care for us.   He shows up in songs at church and hugs from friends.  He shows up in a peace that settles into my soul as I navigate this time of uncertainty.

I just have to share the gratefulness I feel in my heart for the man that takes care of me here on earth and my Heavenly Father who takes care of me in ways I don't even know or understand.